ADJUSTMENTS
Entering college thus far has been such a surreal experience. Making the move from "hometown" to "unknown town" has really been a struggle for me. Transitioning from a place where you know almost everyone, to a place where you know absolutely no one causes much more anxiety than it should. (too tired to finish rn)
The End... To a Not so "PERFECT" Summer
Then we have all the relationship drama that came along with summer. Break ups, make ups, hook ups, the whole nine yards. I'm not one who is enthralled with the idea of finding love at such a young age, but I have always been one who looks forward to having a fun summer fling and watching others around me fall in love. That wasn't the case this summer... Too much drama came from the idea that I could entertain someone else's love story and try for one of my own. Watching the people you love fall in and out of love constantly gets a little old, and the drama that comes with it can be extremely taxing on third party members, which makes finding a 'love' of your own that much more difficult. To say the least, love interests for me this summer were few and far between and filled with much more drama than necessary.
Now on to this summer's party scene... how fun (read in most sarcastic voice imaginable). Who isn't down for a summer rager every once in a while? (Raises hand) It started off fine, parties, friends, and fun! Then things got way more intense then anyone would have ever imagined. -Drugs, alcohol, sex, lies, fights, drama and police were the make up of most of the partying I was involved in this year.
This summer, I feel as though I lost a sense of who I am, but I also got to see myself in a different light... a very dim light, but a different light nonetheless. I got to learn a lot about myself, the person I want to be, and the person I never want to see myself become, all in one summer, and for that, I guess I can't help but to be thankful for the experiences I have had this year.
But with summer coming to an end, we're all getting ready to experience that "end of summertime sadness"... no more parties, no more late nights, no more sunny days, no more excitement.
The end of summer signifies a personal growth for every individual in some way- former middle schoolers are taking that giant leap into high school, others are venturing into their senior year, which I can tell you from experience, is not only stressful, but a very bittersweet year for all. And while all of those trivial high school problems and stresses occur, former high school students are getting ready to leave that, and make a huge change in their life; a new environment, a split from friends, new people, and a newfound sense of independence.
No one is ever ready for summer to be over; it's undoubtedly one of the best times of the year... and though the idea of college gives me great anxiety, I can't wait to keep (you) updated on all my college endeavors...
My Story
I've never experienced a trauma or an intense life changing event, but there is so much that I keep hidden from the outside world that has shaped me into the person I am today.
I grew up well. I had a loving family, money was never an issue, and I was the baby. As I continued to grow I had a tight knit relationship with each of my family members, my mom and I being the closest (as we are today). But as I got older and needed to start being more independent I struggled intensely. In kindergarten, I would cry when I got dropped off and wouldn't feel relief until I got picked up. In elementary and upper elementary I would attend sleepovers at friend's houses and wouldn't make it through the night. My parents thought it was just a phase-- My sisters both were very extroverted; they loved going out and meeting new people. Conversation and friends came easy for them. Don't get me wrong, I didn't have a hard time making friends, I just had a hard time keeping them. In junior high, I had a whole new set of friends, poeple I generally wouldn't talk to. Still, being around them I felt like an outcast. As I ventured into high school, I began having anxiety attacks and trouble sleeping through the night. Family problems emerged and I just couldn't take it. I would cry so much and worry about everything so often that it became hard for me to breathe. I started declining offers to hang out in groups and became even more antisocial. I resorted to sarcasm as an escape for uncomfortable conversations and developed a very serious attitude problem. I felt like everyone was against me. I was becoming a loner. As life started getting more serious, my stress level began to increase. Things as little as a simple doctors visit made my blood pressure sky rocket. Still I kept all my pain and worry to myself; not even my parents knew. All anyone knew was that I began to hate people and the world around me. I get that people say it all the time, and when I say it jokingly, most of the time there was hidden truth behind it, "I hate everyone", "I'm too awkward to do (anything)". This was my life. I always felt nervous, and shy, and awkard, and simply out of place. Now, interactions with people and developing relationships is one of the biggest struggles I face. I have major trust issues and many underlying insecurities. It turns out that I have social anxiety. Something that is very hard to control and may seem like it's not a huge problem to most people, but to me it's everything. I struggle to go on interviews, talk to my teachers, make friends, and accept offers to hang out outside of my comfort zone.
I decided that the only way I could start branching out and letting people in was to write out my feelings and express myself through my personality and clothing. That's why I started blogging. It gives me an outlet for my feelings and a drive to succeed. It may seem odd, but blogging or writing out my feelings has shaped me into the person I am today.
I grew up well. I had a loving family, money was never an issue, and I was the baby. As I continued to grow I had a tight knit relationship with each of my family members, my mom and I being the closest (as we are today). But as I got older and needed to start being more independent I struggled intensely. In kindergarten, I would cry when I got dropped off and wouldn't feel relief until I got picked up. In elementary and upper elementary I would attend sleepovers at friend's houses and wouldn't make it through the night. My parents thought it was just a phase-- My sisters both were very extroverted; they loved going out and meeting new people. Conversation and friends came easy for them. Don't get me wrong, I didn't have a hard time making friends, I just had a hard time keeping them. In junior high, I had a whole new set of friends, poeple I generally wouldn't talk to. Still, being around them I felt like an outcast. As I ventured into high school, I began having anxiety attacks and trouble sleeping through the night. Family problems emerged and I just couldn't take it. I would cry so much and worry about everything so often that it became hard for me to breathe. I started declining offers to hang out in groups and became even more antisocial. I resorted to sarcasm as an escape for uncomfortable conversations and developed a very serious attitude problem. I felt like everyone was against me. I was becoming a loner. As life started getting more serious, my stress level began to increase. Things as little as a simple doctors visit made my blood pressure sky rocket. Still I kept all my pain and worry to myself; not even my parents knew. All anyone knew was that I began to hate people and the world around me. I get that people say it all the time, and when I say it jokingly, most of the time there was hidden truth behind it, "I hate everyone", "I'm too awkward to do (anything)". This was my life. I always felt nervous, and shy, and awkard, and simply out of place. Now, interactions with people and developing relationships is one of the biggest struggles I face. I have major trust issues and many underlying insecurities. It turns out that I have social anxiety. Something that is very hard to control and may seem like it's not a huge problem to most people, but to me it's everything. I struggle to go on interviews, talk to my teachers, make friends, and accept offers to hang out outside of my comfort zone.
I decided that the only way I could start branching out and letting people in was to write out my feelings and express myself through my personality and clothing. That's why I started blogging. It gives me an outlet for my feelings and a drive to succeed. It may seem odd, but blogging or writing out my feelings has shaped me into the person I am today.
Love Yourself, First. <3
It seems as seems like our generation is experiencing an overwhelming amount of stress, depression, anxiety, and mistrust. It literally is so sad to see a whole generation of people who are so overwhelmed by the desire to be perfect or accepted by society that they don't accept themselves. Many of our teenagers are resorting to extreme measures to fit in or get where they want to be in life and if they don't accomplish these goals they resort to even more extreme measures to diminish the sadness they are feeling. Most of us are walking around wearing masks; smiling on the outside but hurting on the inside. Maybe it's from the harsh words of others, the struggle to get to the place in life where you want to be in life, or the desire to simply be better. We all have a story, a tragic flaw, or fear.
I just want everyone to be able to get to a place where they are extremely happy and overwhelmed with joy within themselves. We must realize that there is know set definition of perfection because simply put, we are all perfect in our own way. We are all God's creation. We were created in his image, and should accept that. Granted there may always be that person who you will see as prettier, smarter, thinner, more privileged, or more popular than yourself, but we mustn't dwell on that. We must all come to the realization that the very person who you look at with envy feels the same way as you.
Before we go feeling bad for ourselves or seeking love and acceptance from others, we must learn to accept love from ourselves. Love yourself first, or you can never truly open yourself up to be loved by another.
Before we go feeling bad for ourselves or seeking love and acceptance from others, we must learn to accept love from ourselves. Love yourself first, or you can never truly open yourself up to be loved by another.
If you’ve ever doubted yourself, walk deep into any forest. Notice how the trees still stand even though they are given no recognition. Walk along any stream. The water still flows, though no one stops to praise it. Watch the stars late at night; they shine without acknowledgment. Humans are just the same. We are made out of the same elements as these beautiful wonders. Always remember your beauty and self worth.
Society, today
The world as we know it has forever been altered with the arrival of a new generation. We have become so consumed in things larger than life, things that are completely beyond us. We are not focused on the good of the world, rather in making it some luxurious dream spot. We are becoming a fallen race; the existence of humanity hanging in our grasps, slowing fading away. What we need to do is rally and come together as a people to find the good in the world. Remember how life was before social media or technological advances and become that people again- the MLK's, Lincolns, JFK's, Rosa Parks, or Oprah Winfrey's- we can't forget the good ones, the fallen ones.
Senior Year
Senior year is a very bittersweet time of my life. This year has
been an exhilarating one, and I anticipate taking the next few steps to
graduation with pride. One thing I am really looking forward to before
graduation is prom. What girl doesn't dream about prom; the perfect date, the
perfect dress, and the perfect night?
The thought of being done with school, moving forward, and growing up is frightening. Yet, it’s exciting to think that I have grown up and made it to this point in life. A lot of people say that high school should be the time of your life, and that has proven to be true. Throughout my high school career I have had some of the best times of my life to date, and I have also had some of the worse. Regardless of the mistakes and problems I’ve encountered, there is absolutely nothing I regret or would change from the past four years of my life. For future seniors, the only advice I could offer is to enjoy this time of your life. It will fly by and before you know it, the stress of it all will just continue to pile up—but don’t let that hold you back!
As I exit high school and enter the “real world” I plan to continue to live my life to the fullest and not look back; my past is the past for a reason. But my main goal is to live my life to the fullest with no regrets in hopes of attaining my dreams in the future.
The thought of being done with school, moving forward, and growing up is frightening. Yet, it’s exciting to think that I have grown up and made it to this point in life. A lot of people say that high school should be the time of your life, and that has proven to be true. Throughout my high school career I have had some of the best times of my life to date, and I have also had some of the worse. Regardless of the mistakes and problems I’ve encountered, there is absolutely nothing I regret or would change from the past four years of my life. For future seniors, the only advice I could offer is to enjoy this time of your life. It will fly by and before you know it, the stress of it all will just continue to pile up—but don’t let that hold you back!
As I exit high school and enter the “real world” I plan to continue to live my life to the fullest and not look back; my past is the past for a reason. But my main goal is to live my life to the fullest with no regrets in hopes of attaining my dreams in the future.
Social Media
We've got Facebook, Twitter, Instagram, Tumblr and many more social communication sites, who really needs to communicate face to face with anyone anymore?
Social media has been a big changing factor for our generation. Communication is now done virtually rather than through personal interactions. Regardless of that fact, technology, and the things we are able to acquire from it have greatly improved. We now have access to virtually anyone and anything thing we need with the click of only a few buttons.
But these websites have also given kids new found 'courage' they wouldn't have otherwise had. Cyber bullying is a big deal in today's society. Cyber bullying is bullying that takes place using electronic technology. Examples of cyber bullying include mean text messages or emails, rumors sent by email or posted on social networking sites, and embarrassing pictures, videos, websites, or fake profiles. -stopcyberbullying.org This national epidemic has led to the deaths, suicides, and widespread depression amongst teens.
Though social media has improved society in a way, it has also become detrimental to the teenage users. It's a great advancement in technology that needs to be controlled.
Thanksgiving
It's apparent in the
name that Thanksgiving is a day to give thanks, but giving thanks goes far
beyond being thankful for your luxuries in life-- it's the simple things that
matter most. It's not only a time for good food, fun festivities, and
lounging around watching sports all day, but it's a time for family.
I'm extremely thankful
for a lot of things in my life. I am very privileged, and for that I would say
I'm not lucky, but blessed. I'm thankful for the opportunities that have been
presented in my life, my health, and most of all my family. The impact that the
people in my life have made on me is surreal. From my mom, dad, and sisters, to
my extended family, the relationship that I have maintained with each of them
has given me a new prospective on life. Family has made me realize that no one
person is the same. The opportunities each individual is presented with in life
are not always positive and not equally dispersed, but no matter what problems
you face, or struggles you encounter, they will always be standing by your
side: through thick and thin. Knowing that there are a select few people,
family, that I can actually count on for anything has made me the most fortunate girl in
the world. The amount of thanks that I would like to extend to my family and friends goes beyond words. "Sometimes you have to stop dwelling on the ones who have done you wrong & start being Thankful for the ones who do you right!" and for me those 'ones' will always be family.
Relationships
"For every Bethany and Jason there is a Will and Jada."-Glee
The scary thing about relationships is that you will either break up with that person or get married to them.Which sounds better; spending a few months, maybe years with a person on temporary forevers, only for it to end in heart break, or finding true happiness through the ups and downs of life with one person for the remainder your time here on Earth? But I mean, aside from that little conundrum, relationships aren't all bad! Right?
Who doesn't hope for option number 2 though? From childhood, you paint this picture in your head of what your future will look like; you plan the ideal princess wedding, and even get a head start on your future living situation by playing house. It's every girls dream to find the perfect guy to court her and spend the rest of her life with, but let's face it, it's not that simple. Everything in life isn't always rainbows and butterflies, and that is something you have to remember when dealing with a situation as delicate as a relationship. There will be a fair share of downs on your roller coaster ride, but that doesn't mean you run at the first sign of danger. In order for anything to work you have to TRY. But the effort can't be only one sided, it's a two way street.
If you're anything like me, the idea of a relationship is the scariest thing you can think up. But what are we really afraid of? Relationships can be fun and easy and a great experience to explore yourself and others through intimate interactions. You've just got to be open to change and letting people in.
The formula to any relationships is communication, trust, and love. Remember that and you should be fine!
Coping with Breakups
The scary thing about relationships is that you will either break up with that person or get married to them.Which sounds better; spending a few months, maybe years with a person on temporary forevers, only for it to end in heart break, or finding true happiness through the ups and downs of life with one person for the remainder your time here on Earth? But I mean, aside from that little conundrum, relationships aren't all bad! Right?
Who doesn't hope for option number 2 though? From childhood, you paint this picture in your head of what your future will look like; you plan the ideal princess wedding, and even get a head start on your future living situation by playing house. It's every girls dream to find the perfect guy to court her and spend the rest of her life with, but let's face it, it's not that simple. Everything in life isn't always rainbows and butterflies, and that is something you have to remember when dealing with a situation as delicate as a relationship. There will be a fair share of downs on your roller coaster ride, but that doesn't mean you run at the first sign of danger. In order for anything to work you have to TRY. But the effort can't be only one sided, it's a two way street.
If you're anything like me, the idea of a relationship is the scariest thing you can think up. But what are we really afraid of? Relationships can be fun and easy and a great experience to explore yourself and others through intimate interactions. You've just got to be open to change and letting people in.
The formula to any relationships is communication, trust, and love. Remember that and you should be fine!
Coping with Breakups
It seems as though with all the advances in technology, relationships have taken a turn for the worst. Communication is done through texting and phone calls, and feelings become tweets and statuses. In the end; this all leads to a very bad break up.
We all know that breaking up is hard to do, but moving on is even harder. In the past few months I have found this out the hard way. It's never easy when a relationship comes to an end, and getting over it has proven to be the hardest part. How people cope with these breakup situations is all dependent on the events leading up to them.
The best thing to do is simply MOVE ON. Realize that through it all, you have gained a great experience and all you can do is grow from it and become a stronger, more independent individual. If moving on is easier said than done, you could also try gaining insight from others with similar experiences. Realize that this type of thing happens often, and you are not the only one who has gone through the pain and emotional distressed that relationships offer.
Another thing to remember when coping with a breakup is to not try to take on all of the pain for yourself. DON'T GO THROUGH IT ALONE. Share how you are feeling with others who you know are sure to understand you and be there for you. Take your new found freedom to go out and catch up with friend; they can help you get through the situation simply by taking your mind off of it. DON'T ISOLATE YOURSELF. Another way to come to terms with breakups is by staying out of contact with your ex. Of course, you'll be tempted to go and hang out with them or send them a sweet text reminding them of what use to be or what could have been, but don't do it! Let them see for themselves what they have let go of and will be missing out on. Isolate yourself from them as best as possible and let them know YOU ARE BETTER OFF WITHOUT THEM.
Another thing to remember when coping with a breakup is to not try to take on all of the pain for yourself. DON'T GO THROUGH IT ALONE. Share how you are feeling with others who you know are sure to understand you and be there for you. Take your new found freedom to go out and catch up with friend; they can help you get through the situation simply by taking your mind off of it. DON'T ISOLATE YOURSELF. Another way to come to terms with breakups is by staying out of contact with your ex. Of course, you'll be tempted to go and hang out with them or send them a sweet text reminding them of what use to be or what could have been, but don't do it! Let them see for themselves what they have let go of and will be missing out on. Isolate yourself from them as best as possible and let them know YOU ARE BETTER OFF WITHOUT THEM.
If the above treatments have failed you, and you are still a jumble of emotions, find a way to let it out. Scream at the top of your lungs how much you "hate" them; rip up all the pictures of the two of you together, delete their number and unfollow them on social networking sites. LET IT ALL OUT.
Now, try focusing your energy else where. Don't keep dwelling on the past or making attempts to find a new relationship or thinking up ways to improve your relationship. FIND HAPPINESS IN OTHER AREAS OF YOUR LIFE.
While you manage to do all of these things, remember that TIME is the ultimate healer; but if all else fails, resort to a carton of your favorite ice cream, grab a box of chocolates and tissue, turn on Net-Flix and take some personal time off while sobbing over sad romance movies.
While you manage to do all of these things, remember that TIME is the ultimate healer; but if all else fails, resort to a carton of your favorite ice cream, grab a box of chocolates and tissue, turn on Net-Flix and take some personal time off while sobbing over sad romance movies.
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